ONE YEAR

Can it really be?

Are we sure?

Did time really go by that fast?

One whole year?

Really?



Well, that is what the calendar says. It says that I have not seen or heard my moms voice in year!! UNBELIEVABLE!!! I lay wake at night trying to remember her laughter...her voice...the way she walked...the way she would smile when we came over...am I forgetting? Or is my mind blocking it to keep me from hurting more? Oh, how I would love to remember!! I have pictures all over the house to remind me of her smile and how beautiful she was. But the only little things are slipping away!!! UGH!! I was sitting here thinking the other day...do I still have her voice recorded on my old answering machine? Could it be there? Should I try to listen to it? What if it is not there? I decided that I would not try, I would be too upset if it wasn't there and if it was...well that would open a flood gate that I have been pushing to keep closed!

My mother was my best friend. I have a lot of close good friends but my mother was the one that I talked to everyday. Saw everyday, well maybe not every day but several times a week!


I miss her.

I miss our friendship.

My children miss her.

Oh my how time flies. My advice to you all...take time to enjoy each other!!!! Don't be so wrapped up in life that you forget to live!! Don't regret not doing something.


Has it really been one year?

I miss you Mother!!!!