Well, it has been a while since I have posted anything. I haven't forgot about my blog. I just have not be able to post in a while and still may not be able to post anything else for a while.
I have here to ask my bloggy friends to pray for me.
Not saying exactly what for.
Just know that I need prayers...lots of prayers.
Thank you prayer warriors!!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
He Didn't Have to Be!
I am sure you have heard the song "He Didn't Have to Be" by Brad Paisley.
What? You haven't?
Oh, you must hear the song!
I know that the song is really a song from a son to his dad, but I really think of my dad when I hear the song.
How?
Well, the song is so my dad! He started dating my mom, who was a single mom with 4 kids!! Not just one kid BUT 4!! He not only fell in love with my mom but also with ALL the kids as well. They married. He took the kids in, treated them like the his own, adopted them and gave them his name. I am amazed by that.
Why is that so amazing???
Well, my mom was 29 with 4 kids and my dad was 51!!! His other 3 kids were grown, married with families of their own and he loving took 4 kids...ages 2-8...and started raising them!!!
That to me is AMAZING!!! So this song is to honor my dad. Who didn't have to be a dad again. He didn't have to marry a woman with 4 children. He didn't have to have me. My dad's heart was so big and so sweet and full of love!!
I miss his laugh and the twinkle in his eye when we came over! His birthday was yesterday. He would have been 87. My dad was amazing! I, too, can only hope to be as good to my children as he was to ALL of his!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVFmHHxXCVg
(go here to watch the video and here the song)
What? You haven't?
Oh, you must hear the song!
I know that the song is really a song from a son to his dad, but I really think of my dad when I hear the song.
How?
Well, the song is so my dad! He started dating my mom, who was a single mom with 4 kids!! Not just one kid BUT 4!! He not only fell in love with my mom but also with ALL the kids as well. They married. He took the kids in, treated them like the his own, adopted them and gave them his name. I am amazed by that.
Why is that so amazing???
Well, my mom was 29 with 4 kids and my dad was 51!!! His other 3 kids were grown, married with families of their own and he loving took 4 kids...ages 2-8...and started raising them!!!
That to me is AMAZING!!! So this song is to honor my dad. Who didn't have to be a dad again. He didn't have to marry a woman with 4 children. He didn't have to have me. My dad's heart was so big and so sweet and full of love!!
I miss his laugh and the twinkle in his eye when we came over! His birthday was yesterday. He would have been 87. My dad was amazing! I, too, can only hope to be as good to my children as he was to ALL of his!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVFmHHxXCVg
(go here to watch the video and here the song)
Monday, March 2, 2009
Jesus Has A Rocking Chair
Be sure to pause the music playing before watching the video...oh and grab a box of tissues!
Remembering My Little Angel
I spent sometime last night going through Evey's box. A box full of pictures, cards, prayers, newspaper articles, and the book from the funeral. I can't say that it is easy doing this. I can't say that one day it will be easy. Some may wonder why I would cause myself more pain by reliving what March 2nd, 2006 brought. I want to remember her. I want to remember all the wonderful things that God did for us on that day. I want to teach my children about the love that was poured out onto this family. If I push away those feelings, then I am saying that she did not exist. AND SHE DID!!! She may not have lived outside my womb but she still lived. She kicked. Her heart beated. All her organs worked...she was alive and still is alive with MY SAVIOR!
I miss her.
I often wonder today...
What color eyes did she have?
How tall would she be today?
Hair color? Blonde like the others?
What would her little voice sound like?
So many questions that I will not be able to answer. So many things I wish I knew. Only God knows my answers. He is holding her for me today. Loving her for me. He has more love for her than I could have ever had...how amazing that she went from knowing only my love to knowing our Lord's love!!!!!
As I was going through the box of memories, I came across something special. Something that I forgot I had. A great friend of mine spoke at Evey's funeral and she typed it all out and gave me copy of it to hold on to and cherish. I am so thankful that she did. I want to share it with you!
"I was honored when Trey and Shelly asked me to SPEAK at the service today. So, today I will be reading to you some scriptures.
1 Corinthians 13:13 tells us
'So now faith, hope and love abide, these three, but the greatest of these is love.'
Evey's life was about this Great Love.
Jeremiah 1:5
'Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you.'
It was with HIS great love that she was carefully and lovingly formed by God.
1 John 4:7 instructs us
'Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.'
This child spent her whole life knowing only pure, unfaltering love. Nobody had ever seen her, but just knowing her, they felt this love for her. Love from her brother and sister, Love from countless family members and friends. Can you imagine living for 5 months on this earth knowing ONLY LOVE? No hate, now hunger, no fear, no shame,-JUST LOVE! We all would have cherished more time with her but I do treasure the thought that Evey had a life filled with pure love and she went to be in heaven where our Creator reigns, the one who first loved us.
I would like to close my time reading a poem. I have to be honest, I wrote 3 poems until I finally found one I could read through without crying.
Look around and what do you see?
Everywhere is God's great mercy.
Do you feel the wind on your face?
That is the Maker sending you His Grace.
Do you smell the coming rain?
That is the Creator trying to heal your pain.
Do you hear the sound of rolling thunder?
He is calling out to you to not suffer.
Do you see the sunshine streaming through the clouds above?
That is Evey sending down to you all her love.
It's alright to grieve, It's okay to cry.
It is so very hard to say goodbye.
I know Evey will hear every word we say,
Because she is with God in Heaven today."
Everywhere is God's great mercy.
Do you feel the wind on your face?
That is the Maker sending you His Grace.
Do you smell the coming rain?
That is the Creator trying to heal your pain.
Do you hear the sound of rolling thunder?
He is calling out to you to not suffer.
Do you see the sunshine streaming through the clouds above?
That is Evey sending down to you all her love.
It's alright to grieve, It's okay to cry.
It is so very hard to say goodbye.
I know Evey will hear every word we say,
Because she is with God in Heaven today."
Thank you friend for such sweet words!!
So today, I will be remembering my sweet angel girl. I will be cherishing the cards and sweet words that were shared with our family during our hard time. I will be loving my other 3 little angels a little harder today...thanking the Lord that he allowed them to stay with me! I will be thankful that Jesus has a Rocking Chair to hold and rock sweet little angels in, like mine!
Today I MISS HER!!!!!!!!
Here is last years post about Evey...please feel free to check it out...her little hand and foot prints are clearer to see.
So today, I will be remembering my sweet angel girl. I will be cherishing the cards and sweet words that were shared with our family during our hard time. I will be loving my other 3 little angels a little harder today...thanking the Lord that he allowed them to stay with me! I will be thankful that Jesus has a Rocking Chair to hold and rock sweet little angels in, like mine!
Today I MISS HER!!!!!!!!
Here is last years post about Evey...please feel free to check it out...her little hand and foot prints are clearer to see.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
YUMMY!
After church we had a bake auction...kind of like a cake sale but the cakes are auctioned off. We did this to raise money for a mission trip to Mexico. It was so much fun. We usually have this auction to raise money for the youth group to go to camp, but we decided to let them raise money for the mission trip instead. You would not believe how much some of these things go for!!! There was this one dish...it was Death by Chocolate!!! I wanted it! I called Trey in the room. We were ready! The bidding began! And it quickly grew out of our price range!!!!! When the price reached over $60, we stopped bidding! The final price for the dish...$200!!! Yes, I am serious!!!!!
So we settled for some cupcakes that looked like Elmo. Too cute! Of course we bought them for our little Elmo nut, Hannah! She tried to grab them out of our hand! Now, they are not perfect. Someone said they were left over from a party the day before, but we didn't care...they were still cute and I knew that my little girl would love it!!
So when we got home, we ate lunch and had a cupcake. Even Hannah had a cupcake. I was a little worried about the red icing...sometimes it just doesn't taste all that good. But these were suuuuper yummy!!!! Hannah loved hers so much.........................................
So, I bet you are wondering what we paid for the Elmo cupcakes...it went to a wonderful cause so the price is worth it!!! ($40) I tried to upload a video of her eating it but it took to long. I will try again later. She barely looked up from her cupcake...she was serious about her sugar!!
That's my girl!!!!
So we settled for some cupcakes that looked like Elmo. Too cute! Of course we bought them for our little Elmo nut, Hannah! She tried to grab them out of our hand! Now, they are not perfect. Someone said they were left over from a party the day before, but we didn't care...they were still cute and I knew that my little girl would love it!!
So when we got home, we ate lunch and had a cupcake. Even Hannah had a cupcake. I was a little worried about the red icing...sometimes it just doesn't taste all that good. But these were suuuuper yummy!!!! Hannah loved hers so much.........................................
So, I bet you are wondering what we paid for the Elmo cupcakes...it went to a wonderful cause so the price is worth it!!! ($40) I tried to upload a video of her eating it but it took to long. I will try again later. She barely looked up from her cupcake...she was serious about her sugar!!
That's my girl!!!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
You know its bad when.....
YOUR SECRET SISTER AT WORK LEAVES YOU THIS....
Shelly's Armor Against Sickness!!
I LOVE IT!!!
I thought it was so cute and exactly what we seem to need. My oldest, Autumn has had the stomach bug 3 times now!! Do you know how many missed days that is??? Lets not even count. This gift was all in a nice white sack with cute scriptures attached to it.
"My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto My savings. Let them not depart from thine eyes; Keep them in the midst of thine heart. For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh." Proverbs 4:20-22
"For I will restore health unto thee, and will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord..."
Jeremiah 30:17
"What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye received them, and ye shall have them." Mark 11:24
"And the Lord will take away from thee all sickness." Deuteronomy 7:15
Is that not the coolest thing...and so creative!!! Thank you so much!!!
Watch out secret sister I am on to you!!!!!
Shelly's Armor Against Sickness!!
I LOVE IT!!!
I thought it was so cute and exactly what we seem to need. My oldest, Autumn has had the stomach bug 3 times now!! Do you know how many missed days that is??? Lets not even count. This gift was all in a nice white sack with cute scriptures attached to it.
"My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto My savings. Let them not depart from thine eyes; Keep them in the midst of thine heart. For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh." Proverbs 4:20-22
"For I will restore health unto thee, and will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord..."
Jeremiah 30:17
"What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye received them, and ye shall have them." Mark 11:24
"And the Lord will take away from thee all sickness." Deuteronomy 7:15
Is that not the coolest thing...and so creative!!! Thank you so much!!!
Watch out secret sister I am on to you!!!!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
WITNESS PROTECTION PROGRAM
IN CASE YOU ALL ARE WONDERING...
WE HAVE BEEN WITNESSES OF SOMETHING HORRIBLE...
SOMETHING SO DISGUSTING....
SOMETHING YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO WITNESS...
THIS HAS FORCED US TO GO INTO HIDING...
WE ARE NOW PART OF THE WITNESS PROTECTION PROGRAM...
WE ARE BEING HUNTED....
WE ARE BEING WATCHED...
GRAB YOUR CHILDREN AND RUN......
DON'T LOOK BACK....
IT IS............
THE STOMACH BUG VIRUS!!!!
he is mean. he is scary. he makes your children lie around in the middle of the floor moaning. he makes your children tell you things...gross things! he strips you of your freedom.
HELP!!!! SOMEBODY PLEASE!!!
SAVE US!!!
for now we are forced to hide our faces, lock our doors, and to not breathe on anyone!! if you see us...run! but we look different now. we were forced to put on disguises. we are contagious. don't talk to us or the bug chasing us will find you too!
if you see these faces....
RUN!
please be in prayer for our family. it seems as though the stomach bug has decided to settle down right here in our house. only the girls have had it so far, which means either the boys are immune or they are next to fall. i have been off work all week and stuck in this house :( hopefully next week will be a healthier week for us!!! thank you prayer warriors.
UPDATE:
TREY HAS FALLEN TO THE BUG!
WE ARE NOT ALL IMMUNE!
WHO WILL BE THE NEXT TO BECOME ITS VICTIM!!??
Next....Rudy stayed home today! He has been a real trooper! He may even go to school tomorrow! It is official...we have all had the bug...
Hopefully he is done with this family and will move out! Time to "raid" the house :)
WE HAVE BEEN WITNESSES OF SOMETHING HORRIBLE...
SOMETHING SO DISGUSTING....
SOMETHING YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO WITNESS...
THIS HAS FORCED US TO GO INTO HIDING...
WE ARE NOW PART OF THE WITNESS PROTECTION PROGRAM...
WE ARE BEING HUNTED....
WE ARE BEING WATCHED...
GRAB YOUR CHILDREN AND RUN......
DON'T LOOK BACK....
IT IS............
THE STOMACH BUG VIRUS!!!!
he is mean. he is scary. he makes your children lie around in the middle of the floor moaning. he makes your children tell you things...gross things! he strips you of your freedom.
HELP!!!! SOMEBODY PLEASE!!!
SAVE US!!!
for now we are forced to hide our faces, lock our doors, and to not breathe on anyone!! if you see us...run! but we look different now. we were forced to put on disguises. we are contagious. don't talk to us or the bug chasing us will find you too!
if you see these faces....
RUN!
please be in prayer for our family. it seems as though the stomach bug has decided to settle down right here in our house. only the girls have had it so far, which means either the boys are immune or they are next to fall. i have been off work all week and stuck in this house :( hopefully next week will be a healthier week for us!!! thank you prayer warriors.
UPDATE:
TREY HAS FALLEN TO THE BUG!
WE ARE NOT ALL IMMUNE!
WHO WILL BE THE NEXT TO BECOME ITS VICTIM!!??
Next....Rudy stayed home today! He has been a real trooper! He may even go to school tomorrow! It is official...we have all had the bug...
Hopefully he is done with this family and will move out! Time to "raid" the house :)
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
ONE YEAR
Can it really be?
Are we sure?
Did time really go by that fast?
One whole year?
Really?
Well, that is what the calendar says. It says that I have not seen or heard my moms voice in year!! UNBELIEVABLE!!! I lay wake at night trying to remember her laughter...her voice...the way she walked...the way she would smile when we came over...am I forgetting? Or is my mind blocking it to keep me from hurting more? Oh, how I would love to remember!! I have pictures all over the house to remind me of her smile and how beautiful she was. But the only little things are slipping away!!! UGH!! I was sitting here thinking the other day...do I still have her voice recorded on my old answering machine? Could it be there? Should I try to listen to it? What if it is not there? I decided that I would not try, I would be too upset if it wasn't there and if it was...well that would open a flood gate that I have been pushing to keep closed!
My mother was my best friend. I have a lot of close good friends but my mother was the one that I talked to everyday. Saw everyday, well maybe not every day but several times a week!
I miss her.
I miss our friendship.
My children miss her.
Oh my how time flies. My advice to you all...take time to enjoy each other!!!! Don't be so wrapped up in life that you forget to live!! Don't regret not doing something.
Has it really been one year?
I miss you Mother!!!!
Are we sure?
Did time really go by that fast?
One whole year?
Really?
Well, that is what the calendar says. It says that I have not seen or heard my moms voice in year!! UNBELIEVABLE!!! I lay wake at night trying to remember her laughter...her voice...the way she walked...the way she would smile when we came over...am I forgetting? Or is my mind blocking it to keep me from hurting more? Oh, how I would love to remember!! I have pictures all over the house to remind me of her smile and how beautiful she was. But the only little things are slipping away!!! UGH!! I was sitting here thinking the other day...do I still have her voice recorded on my old answering machine? Could it be there? Should I try to listen to it? What if it is not there? I decided that I would not try, I would be too upset if it wasn't there and if it was...well that would open a flood gate that I have been pushing to keep closed!
My mother was my best friend. I have a lot of close good friends but my mother was the one that I talked to everyday. Saw everyday, well maybe not every day but several times a week!
I miss her.
I miss our friendship.
My children miss her.
Oh my how time flies. My advice to you all...take time to enjoy each other!!!! Don't be so wrapped up in life that you forget to live!! Don't regret not doing something.
Has it really been one year?
I miss you Mother!!!!
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